You know, after typing my last post, I honestly asked myself, "Why do I believe in God?"
Every time I said it was because I hate science, it felt wrong. I had always said I believed in God because of my hate for science, but today felt different. I looked at myself, my father had us go to church for about two years, in which I hated it, but I still had this sinking feeling of God within me. Why did I believe in God?
Every year, on my birthday, my mother says to me, they we are whatever age I turned ie, she said last year that we were nineteen. Not only that, but my father says I was born at 12:30 AM, while my mother says we(there's that "we" again) were born at 12:33 AM. I finally asked her today why she said that, first time I ever asked mind you.
On December 29th, 1989 at 7:00 AM, my mother went into labor with me. At around 11:30 PM, after hours of labor, I had still yet to be born. Doctors learned that my umbilical cord had begun strangling me, slowly killing me. Doctors attempted to get my mother to make one final push, hoping to quickly give birth to me. My mother's heart was failing however and was unable to do as they asked. They gave my mother time to rest, for fear that anymore struggling would kill her. However, on December 30th, 1989, at 12:29, my mother passed away at the age of 26. Doctors quickly did an emergency c-section in order to save my life. At 12:30 I was removed from my mother, declared a still-born.
My father left the room at that point, heartbroken. He blamed God for every mistake that happened. Doctors weighted and cleaned me and sewed my mother back up. Out of nowhere, at 12:33 AM, I cried. Around the same time, my mother's heart began beating once more.
After hearing this, I asked my mom if she knew what death was like. She shook her head, and only said "The only thing I remember was Him giving you to me. Then I woke back up."
I don't know what to say, but my dad tells me that everything my mother said was true. So I guess I believe in God because without him, my mother and I wouldn't be alive today.