Man, rule 1 of the internet is "Don't take it personally." If you feel that you were treated unfairly, you should see how badly people get flamed on the lifting forum I go to when they create a thread that makes it obvious they didn't read the FAQ. Even then, it's nothing personal, it's just to keep down repeat, off-topic, and prohibited threads.
If you're feeling depressed (and no offense, but it sounds like you are; I've been there lots), find somebody to talk to. Ya might not want to, but you need to. It'll help. Heck, PM me if you need to. As I said, depression/bipolar (never been to a shrink to find out which) is something I've been dealing with for about the last 8 years, if not more.