On studying Psychology, the effects of language, and also emotions and instincts,
I came upon something called Regression, an impulsive escape of an ego to its primitive developmental form in terms of defensive. Theory states that when your chain of thought strikes a cord, whether a realization or consequence, a person would push the idea away from his thoughts but keep its resentment (or similar) at an instinctive, defensive mode so as to recognize and "purge" it.
Upon analyzing my own behaviors since the past few days I realize that I was also affected by compulsive regressions: I was a silent and reserved fellow, you see, but Mary somehow "convinced" me to open my heart and belong to the world, even if I have to blabber like a fool for it. Somehow, finding myself hurting a few Compendiumites unintentionally (and emotionally hurting my ex-girlfriend over...
things) my overwhelming regret and worry almost forced me to revert back to the primitive, reserved poet I once was. Regressions also tend to shut off all (or most) logic, and I temporarily became a helpless child.
Well,
almost. While careful Adaptive Regressions are beneficial for egoistic development, there are also some benefits to actually fighting it. Of course, actually fighting regressions might require you to seek help from family, friends or therapists to process things over because when an individual is compelled by the impulse it's an incredibly difficult battle.