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General Discussion / Re: The $%*! frustration thread
« on: July 10, 2013, 05:22:33 pm »Sajainta, don't listen to a word. You're right. He doesn't know you and probably knows very little to nothing about your past.
Good advice. I'm not going to. I've said my piece (which he seems to not have read) and am not going to pursue this further, even if he does respond. I'm sure I'll be labeled cowardly or "not facing the issue" or "not accepting responsibility" or "not facing up to the truth" or whatever rubbish, but I know a lost cause when I see one and I don't need that kind of stress in my life. I deserve better than that. Over the past few months I've come to like and accept myself a whole lot more and I am nothing like them. And no random stranger on the internet is going to have that sway over me and undo that healing.
@idioticidioms, it's been super fun but I'm done talking with you. The preservation of my mental health and avoiding having flashbacks because of being compared to my abusers trumps arguing with someone on a forum. Make of that what you will. Good day to you, sir.
@tush, I will probably respond later, right now I am seriously sleep-deprived.
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General Discussion / Re: The $%*! frustration thread
« on: July 10, 2013, 06:10:15 am »
Wow. I am astounded. And you completely misread the first part of my second post; I wasn't praising negativity, I was saying I would rather be left alone in life because I do not like people and they frighten me.
You presume to know so much about me from two very short posts. You know nothing about me. I have literally never even spoken to you on this website before today. You have no idea if I am currently getting help. You have no idea whether or not I have reached out to others and have allowed them to help me (I have). You have no idea how much I have healed from my traumas. You have no idea if I want to be helped or not. You have no idea that I blame everyone but myself (the thought is laughable; I take responsibility for my actions and do you have any idea how much I hate myself and blame myself for what happened?). You have no idea if I don't recognize my faults. I am the first person to admit my faults and anyone in my life knows that and thinks it admirable that I'm able to be honest about who I am, about both the good and the bad.
I absolutely do NOT think I am the only person who has suffered in life and anyone who knows me would laugh and be disgusted by that assumption. I am a negative person and can be very unempathetic and cold and I avoid people for a myriad of reasons, but I have never "ruined someone for life," especially not a child.
I love how a post of mine being annoyed at people trying to tell me how to deal with my own crap turns into a response comparing me being an occasionally unpleasant person to my rapists and traffickers, the people who tortured me and almost killed me and enjoyed it, the people who murdered my daughter. How dare you say that to me. How dare you put me in the same category as those people.
I honestly feel sick.
You presume to know so much about me from two very short posts. You know nothing about me. I have literally never even spoken to you on this website before today. You have no idea if I am currently getting help. You have no idea whether or not I have reached out to others and have allowed them to help me (I have). You have no idea how much I have healed from my traumas. You have no idea if I want to be helped or not. You have no idea that I blame everyone but myself (the thought is laughable; I take responsibility for my actions and do you have any idea how much I hate myself and blame myself for what happened?). You have no idea if I don't recognize my faults. I am the first person to admit my faults and anyone in my life knows that and thinks it admirable that I'm able to be honest about who I am, about both the good and the bad.
I absolutely do NOT think I am the only person who has suffered in life and anyone who knows me would laugh and be disgusted by that assumption. I am a negative person and can be very unempathetic and cold and I avoid people for a myriad of reasons, but I have never "ruined someone for life," especially not a child.
I love how a post of mine being annoyed at people trying to tell me how to deal with my own crap turns into a response comparing me being an occasionally unpleasant person to my rapists and traffickers, the people who tortured me and almost killed me and enjoyed it, the people who murdered my daughter. How dare you say that to me. How dare you put me in the same category as those people.
I honestly feel sick.
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General Discussion / Re: The $%*! frustration thread
« on: July 10, 2013, 02:18:11 am »Nobody in their right mind is going to want to stick around you if you're negative all the time
That'd be a perfect ending for me actually.
you're abusing them just as much as you were abused.
Yeah I don't think so. Being a negative person =/= raping and selling children to be raped. I have never abused anyone "just as much as I was abused."
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General Discussion / Re: The $%*! frustration thread
« on: July 09, 2013, 05:16:05 am »
People telling abuse survivors that they should let go of their anger.
People telling abuse survivors that they need to forgive.
People telling abuse survivors that they should not be bitter.
People telling abuse survivors that their coping mechanism of using gallows humour is offensive.
People thinking there is one magical way to deal with trauma.
Fuck this never-ending bullshit.
People telling abuse survivors that they need to forgive.
People telling abuse survivors that they should not be bitter.
People telling abuse survivors that their coping mechanism of using gallows humour is offensive.
People thinking there is one magical way to deal with trauma.
Fuck this never-ending bullshit.
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General Discussion / Re: Quote Digest
« on: July 07, 2013, 06:02:10 am »Quote from: Mark Twain
When a man loves cats, I am his friend and comrade, without further introduction.
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Welcome / Birthday / Seeya! Forum / Re: Milestone reached!
« on: July 07, 2013, 05:56:05 am »
Happy birthday! I understand your sentiment of not feeling like you would live to reach a certain age, but you made it and it's wonderful that you're glad about it! =)
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General Discussion / Re: Humanity: Good News, Bad News
« on: June 22, 2013, 09:53:16 am »
I am very pleased that Kickstarter apologized for not removing that godawful "seduction guide" (read: thinly-veiled "how to get away with sexual assault" how-to book) after being alerted of how disgusting it was. I'm even more happy that they donated money to RAINN (Rape, Abuse, and Incest National Network), stating it's "an excellent organization that combats exactly the sort of problems our inaction may have encouraged." Major kudos, Kickstarter.
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The Lost Sanctum - Completed Items / Re: Chrono Cross Ending Enigma
« on: June 22, 2013, 09:46:06 am »
Oh ProjectoR, you have been missed.
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General Discussion / Re: Doctor Who/Torchwood
« on: April 20, 2013, 08:27:06 pm »
I've actually stopped watching DW to be honest. It's not as interesting to me as it used to be and I'm incredibly fickle when it comes to TV shows. It was fun while it lasted though!
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General Discussion / Re: Stuff you LOVE, baby
« on: April 08, 2013, 02:04:50 am »In that case, terminator IS awesome, but the actual movie with the ferret (I suspect you already know) was kindergarten cop.
Yup, I meant Kindergarten Cop. XD
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General Discussion / Re: Stuff you LOVE, baby
« on: April 04, 2013, 08:34:23 am »"ferrets don't bite"-the terminator
Thank you for giving me incentive to re-watch that movie. I totally forgot there was a ferret.
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General Discussion / Re: Stuff you LOVE, baby
« on: April 01, 2013, 05:00:13 am »I always like furry animals, as long as they don't bite.
You would like Draco and Winslow then! Neither of them bite.
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General Discussion / Re: Stuff you LOVE, baby
« on: March 31, 2013, 05:34:52 am »
Just wanted to update everyone with the news that Draco has a brother!
His name is Winslow, he's a year old, and he was adopted from a local ferret shelter almost two months ago. =D
His name is Winslow, he's a year old, and he was adopted from a local ferret shelter almost two months ago. =D
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General Discussion / Re: Stuff you LOVE, baby
« on: October 12, 2012, 05:10:30 am »
Just found out that the person behind the band Sefiros (which I adore) follows me on Tumblr, likes what I post, and sometimes comments. They followed me months ago, but I thought they were just a fan until now. Oh my dear lord I cannot contain my excitement!
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Welcome / Birthday / Seeya! Forum / Re: Long time no see
« on: October 10, 2012, 04:08:08 am »
[Insert obligatory "welcome back" here.] =)