For the past year, maybe more, I have been into this amazing lady named Kaity(Its a common named so no harm in giving it out). I have had the quote-un-quote "hots" for many women before her, but something was different about her. So never had a relationship before I listen to others advice and just went a head I asked her out.
That failed badly, actually it didn't she just said no. I my self didn't realize she was in a relationship. Regardless I still got to know her better, we have fun together she even got me interested in to Smooth and Latin dance. Still she didn't feel the same about me as I did about her. When the school prom came up I tried my luck again and asked her out and she said yes, night was both amazing and horrible at the same time. Up until the actual Prom event we had a hoot the one hour dinner ended up lasting 3 times as long, Picking her up and dropping her off went smooth but prom was just dull, we didn't dance(if you can call bumping into people while listening to rap dancing), my friends and her friends didn't exactly click either. Over all we both enjoyed the night, at least thats what I thought. I learned (and was constantly reminded by her friends) that she was still in her relationship with her boyfriend, I didn't what to cause unneeded turmoil for her so I backed off for a little bit, we still talked, and I continued to attended dance with her, but I was not trying to go on another date, after all she said she still didn't have the right feelings for me.
I increasingly found myself just doing nothing with her, just the presence of Kaity soothed me. Then she started having problems with her boyfriend, not wanting to make things worse I tried staying out of it, key word being tried. I ended up getting in a verbal fight with him and Kaity heard the whole thing, knowing that was not the thing to do I apologized for putting her through this. I was completely caught off guard when she thanked me, I "showed her a side of him she has never been able to see, and know she knows what he thinks off her". Afterwards it was over between them, I was going to help her lend my shoulder but life got in the way. I spent the next month At college orientation, then flew across to Reno for my aunts funeral, immediately followed by helping my grandmother unpack at her new house, and one week of constant work. It was a month before I saw her again, at that time I was going to voice how I love her, its no longer a simple crush. When I finally saw her again she was with another man, he was an old friend of hers(met him a couple times) who she is now dating.
By the way I got this in an Email earlier today:
well i understand that your being a tad stalkerish to my GIRLFRIEND...(keyword) and i would just ask nicely the first and ONLY time that you back off. now yes i may be coming off as an ass or so called control freak but its time that i take action. so leave her alone or just be a good friend no more "your beautiful and i cant wait to see you" thats my job not yours buddy. so KAITY!!! is mine. are we clear buddy?? like i said this is my only warning so make it a scene and problems will arise so lets make it easy leave her alone Ken.
Have a nice day ken...
~Adam..
Is their a way I can stop loving someone? It doesn't seem to be working out for me, or should I just hold out longer?
