*drops his spoon* I just... came to a frightening revelation...
I decided to take a break (and by "taking a break" I mean "go back to work at the cafe", because only intense frustrations can get rid of latent frustrations), and when I was finally free for a spare few minutes I stood besides the stairs and mused silently. It didn't occur to me then, though it did just now pertaining to what I thought of then. I knew there was something inherently strange when people like ZeaLitY, Josh (I refuse to call him 'Lord'), Saj, etc. claimed that they didn't believe in "predetermined destiny" but somehow believed that "Time Travel was real" (if you ask me, it was a self-defeating belief), but only now did I come to a conclusion, and I swear a logical conclusion (not assumption) that...
...there is no such thing as "creating your own destiny". I tried to reassess the conclusion from different points of view (psychological, neuro-scientifical, anthropological, quantum, philosophical, etc.) but I came to the same conclusion from every corner. Well, I can't say much about "predetermined future" (and you can't hold it against me; I know how some of you people think sometimes, "Oh, if he said that then he probably believes in destiny") because I don't have sufficient data on that but I can say that "predetermined destiny" wouldn't be a far-etched concept either when detecting the mode of existantials, though I have yet to prove or disprove it. What I do think is that there is no proper way that a person can be directly responsible for where he/she ends up, and (at a quantum scale) reason/motive play a relatively small part in the process even if it exists in applied action. The patterns depend in likelihood and predictability with environs and mood taken into account, unless a foreign effect takes place.
At the same time, I must have said a countless times that wars between beliefs is highly idiotic for human species, but only this time did I actually get a proper reason / evidence for it. Firstly, neither the religious parties nor the Athiests / Ant-Theists are actually 100% right about any of what they stand for, but the agnostics come closer to accurate results on their perspective and the rare transcendental liberals reach even more so. I'm not saying that the "battle of beliefs" is a futile thing, but from my data it may as well be: it wouldn't matter who wins, because regardless of the outcome nothing significant would change. But of course, I'm a nobody when it comes to advising folks, so keep playing with your swords and dolls...
I've been right pertaining to Free Will, I've been right pertaining to Ignorance and Knowledge, I've been right pertaining to Meaning of Life, and now I think I'm right about Destiny... and I don't like this. I'm horrified where this is going. But if I know one thing, beliefs and religion are out of my journal to ponder about -- while belief still lingers, religion and Atheism have become mundane and inconsequential. I'll move on to studying advanced existential, binary thought, NLP, cosmology, more psychology (can't get enough of it), and perhaps mathematics, etc. (oww, my head hurts...)