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General Discussion / Re: Final Fantasy V
« on: October 03, 2010, 11:50:39 pm »
1. Worse than FF6, otherwise the best of the 2d FF games.
2. Faris is really cool
3. Liked the gameplay better than most other FFs
4. Story kind of sucked.
5. Main baddie was really stupid. Wasn't he a tree?

Maybe I'll replay it one of these days. I'd rather just replay FF6 a ton more times.

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*sigh* Alright. Well you are basically around my age, so here is my opinion on the matter.

I'm not sure which of these cases is you, A, B, C, D... but in elementary school I was always the only girl with the ADD. It was more acceptable for the boys to have it, but since I was a girl with it, I kind of was an outcast. My issue was that I really was overly energetic. I think my mom tried her best to get me to release my energy at home, but she had a very traumatic childhood based on neglect from bitch grandma that I have to deal with soon. So I eventually figured out that it was best to try to release my energy at school.  I'm not sure where this fits in, but apparently my dad when he was little was diagnosed in the USSR as being "Lesser Autistic" meaning to them "Not complete retard and able to function in society". It was a struggle at first to get him to function in elementary school, but my grandma, a very talented Jew surgeon figured out how to make him best fit in. So basically I think that's why he's never had any friends and always says to me "friends are over rated." He sees no value in "friendship" and finds all that crap "American bullshit".

I'm not sure what I'd diagnose myself, but I hear that Aspergers can be manifested as ADD and gets confused with it all the time. I didn't really pay attention to who was attention-whoring themselves in school more than me, in elementary school anyway because only certain things would gain amusement from me. Like this one girl's tantrums if she was forced to do something she didn't like... though I imagine that may have had nothing to do with ADD and something to do with... something else. Problems at home maybe?

I was really ADD until about 10th grade. I was really wild and in HS I had lots of fun because I was allowed to release my energy and do lots of things so long as I didn't attract the attention of the security people. There were a few times I did that, and that was mostly to protect friends. One time, I was upset that an asshole threw a rotten apple at us so I threw it as hard as I could at his face. Another time, some friends were getting really upset over a thrown milk carton, so I threw it on the roof before a brawl could happen. It's usually best to let the girl handle that kind of crap, especially if she doesn't have a track record. Her mistakes are forgiven quickly. It may have been better not to throw the apple in front of.... two important security people's faces.... but that's beside the point. I am very protective of people I like. Like... *very* protective. Or sometimes, I just punish dumbass egotism. Whatever, it's the fucking interwebs. If I'm banned, it's not the end of the world, I am happy with my life. I've learned that so many times XD.

I also acknowledge I wasn't perfect because sometimes I sought people weaker than me to bully just because I sometimes got so sick of being bullied. My mom used to beat boys up left and right if they said bad things about her in class. I was jealous I never did this, so sometimes I sought people to bully probably because it thrilled me that I was able to bully people in a weaker "social standing" than me. Eventually I apologized to most of the ones I could find later on.

Anyway, 10th grade is when I like to say I "calmed down" a lot and... suffered through depression off and on until I graduated. I wish that I could have figured out how to stop the depression quicker, but I wasn't able to. My family is highly, highly against medicating mental problems that you can figure out for yourself and it's kind of been a struggle for me to do that, but I try. I always try my best not to fall into some dumb crap. The general thing is that I *need* to sleep or else there is kind of a multiplier effect going on with depression... Last night I downed 3 shots of nyquil. It probably was more like 2.5. I expected to pass out, instead I felt like I was in a scary "DXM trip" one of my best friends talks about. Though for him... apparently it's fun. For me, it felt like some nightmare where my boyfriend was being cruel to me. He said that what happened was not a trip, but was me downing 3 shots of vodka and being an angry drunk. I'm usually a giggly drunk where every little fucking thing is funny as hell, so I appreciated that explanation.

The point of all of this is that my philosophy of life's shit is just this: Always do your best. If you don't want to, some people may think you're a lazy oaf or one of those people who uses their "mental problems" as an excuse for everything. Yes, I know that some conditions are very serious, but for the most part, it's learn to fucking live with things and do the best you can. Just try to do the best you can with the things you consider very important to you. Try not to take things too seriously, especially if it's coworker crap/melodrama, this that, whatever the hell pisses you off with society. You can either do your best, or not... I generally don't mind if people don't take things seriously, but I hate it when genuine/hardworking or otherwise intelligent people are punished because of them.

I am not sure exactly what issues you have with society. One person from high school is really, really into this pyramid scheme (one of the better ones apparently) that he's trying to involve everyone in high school with. Eventually he asked me why I wasn't interested in attending his business meetings, so I had to be the one to explain to him bluntly why. I don't mind being a bitch. I need people to understand why society functions the way it does, or at least everything I have learned through my experiences.

Just try your best to do the best you can. I think I saw some stupid headline on aol the other day. something like "OH medication may not be the answer for ADD/other crap". That one just pissed me off and I'm not bothering to read it. Medication generally isn't the best for anything mental, especially in anyone under teen age. Maybe if you have schizo or some really serious problem, I could understand, but fuck the "I'll medicate my kid so they can try to fit in better and not have as many outbursts in class." You need to raise your child so they understand how they need to behave in school. They need to understand why certain things happen and why they need to behave certain ways in certain situations. Don't like it? Spend tons of money sending your kid to special education (no, not the retards), one of those hippie schools that foster art learning. They tend to do well with a lot of kids.

 If income is a huge problem, then you probably shouldn't have been having so many fucking children. In the American system, there is always a way to better yourself/your families. Especially if you live in a more liberal area. You need to learn how to do this so that your family can succeed.

And that, is all I have to say for now. When the grandma nursing home thing is done, I'll come back to this.

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General Discussion / Re: The $%*! frustration thread
« on: September 25, 2010, 08:01:29 am »
Been really horrid with the insomnia lately. I asked the doctor to put me on prescription pills

I have been really freaking out about the trip I'm taking on Sunday to take grandma to the nursing home. Today at work, during my total meltdown when I had to leave the office to sit in the sun for a while to try to make myself stop crying, I called the parents to be demanded to be put into a hotel instead of share a small apt with bitch grandma (mom's mom) and dad. He of course said no, so I said I would order it myself. Mom called me back and let me know that I would only be there from 11 pm to around 6 am, which I then agreed to bear with it. I just hope that dad will be ok to deal with during the brief trip. There are some people that I cannot stand being around when I'm less than happy, and he's number 1. That's mostly what I'm afraid of. He'll be a bitch the entire time and I won't be able to take it and have some kind of melt down.

Coworker drama has reached a threshold. Thankfully, I finally spoke up and it looks like immediate supervisor should be taking care of things. We didn't want the director involved, but at our drunken coworker night, one of us talked really loudly about the manipulative bitch coworker. Immediate supervisor and Director aren't aware of just how much manipulative bitch coworker has fucked all of us over. During my 7 hour shift today that I covered for her, I learned a lot more than I really ever want to. This isn't nearly as bad for me as a worse situation in Japan, but still I get in uber bitch mode when flakes are fucking over us who work hard.

Anyway, right now I think I'm gunna take 4 pills of these prescription drugs . Hopefully I can sleep tonight. Tomorrow I have a shift with pokemon coworker. I like working with him the best, probably, even though me and German coworker have really gotten along well. One time a few weeks ago  there was a huge bitch fight between him and her because she basically was like "Shut the fuck up about pokaymanz, I'm trying to concentrate," and all hell broke lose XD;. I honestly was only offended because I wish she'd said it more politely, but I guess it was a misunderstanding.

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Preaching to the quior, here. I think I was one of those kids. It's not quite Aspergers, but it's close enough, and I am really having a bad time of it right now. It's bad enough to the point where I don't feel I'll ever be able to land a job interview. What worse was that a lot of late crap in my life could have been avoided if I found out about it much sooner. :(

Can I ask how old you are? Just curious because my reply will change depending on that.


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General Discussion / Re: Park Your Amusements Here
« on: September 24, 2010, 03:53:23 am »
I met my first real-life Ayla on Friday night, but she pronounces her name with a long A, like "Kayla." =(

elaborate? Was she a cosplayer?

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tldr.

Just kidding! I hope to read this in more detail soon because I have Aspergers... well I'm pretty sure it manifested as ADD when I was little and still find some things hard these days, but seriously there needs to be some more teacher education about this crap >_<. I had a really hard time in school, especially until 10th grade when depression hit and the ADD stuff was on hold for a while. 

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General Discussion / Re: Video Game Discussion Thread
« on: September 24, 2010, 03:47:44 am »

I been doing alright. I'm never on MSN anymore either lol. Work and school has kind of taken over my life lol. I was really thinking about skipping Zelda II, but I might take a shot at it and see if I can make it through. I haven't played it since I was a child, but I remember getting so pissed off while playing it haha. Super Metroid is great. I still haven't beat it I always start it and get to a spot where I can't figure out what to do and end up deciding to take a break, but I never seem to pick it back up.

Yeah I don't come on MSN anymore because the only people I talked on there was someone from this forum who now is extremely unpleasant to talk to because he's really bent out of shape on things going on in his life, and someone who constantly solicited me for porn of myself... well there were two guys who fit that description. One from this forum, but the other one I'm talking to, my bf found out about and  got really pissed off. Anyway, yeah no more MSN for me.

I'm glad you're keeping busy. I hope the back isn't giving you as much trouble as it used to. A friend of mine has a back problem from two carwrecks. She's on bad insurance and can't work so it's really hard for her : (. She's a really sweet girl, I hope that the back thing can be helped. She's started regularly going to the gym but said that it seems to have gotten worse >_>;. I wish she could afford to see a chiropractor.

 My bf, who is really hardcore metroid, said that next time I play metroid, he'll be there and go through it with me, so maybe I'll do that with him, but maybe not D:.

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General Discussion / Re: Whats YOUR Favourite Game?
« on: September 23, 2010, 12:53:54 am »
If anyone's looking for a Fire Emblem-like game for the PS2, might wanna give Berwick Saga a whirl. It looks neato, though it's only in Japanese. I can't believe the amount of work that must have gone into all that sprite animation.

Looks quite like a ripoff. I wonder if it's a decent ripoff. I love seeing the sprites, though. I'd almost try to venture it if I had a PS2 D:. Although it's against my very being, I *may* get a PS2 sometime in the near future just because a friend gave me two Fatal Fury collections for my b-day somehow assuming I have a PS2. I'm not sure why she'd assume that. Grrr.

Ripoff?! The game was made by the same guy who made the first five Fire Emblem games. He had left Nintendo to work on Enterbrain, where he made this and Tearring Saga, Berwick's prequel. The similarities are intentional, in fact, they faced lawsuit from Nintendo because of it.

HAHA! No wonder it looks like such a ripoff. That is an amusing story, thanks for enlightening XD.

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General Discussion / Re: Video Game Discussion Thread
« on: September 23, 2010, 12:51:35 am »
I finally found revanent wings : D. Turns out it was in my CTDS case. Whoops! I hope to get back into that soon. Otherwise, I'm still mostly poking around at old nintendo games. I'm going through Mario 2 right now. I don't know why I'm not playing it on the SNES. The game was a lot nicer to you on Mario Allstars. I think maybe when I was little, I used to better at platformers, but now I seem to suck a lot more at them. Maybe it's because when I was younger, I only used to play platformers. Now I have more varied interests, I suppose. I'm so loyal to Toad that he's the only character I use. I should just use the Princess at the hard parts, but I can't seem to bring myself to abandon my little annoying mushroom retainer.

I've been playing older Nintendo stuff as well. Started playing Mario 64 and Ocarina of Time. I kind of want to do a Zeldathon and play every game in the series.

Jutters my darling, what have you been up to? :3.  I don't come on MSN anymore at all, so sadly we can't talk D:. Hope you're doing well.

Anyway, if you're doing a Zelda marathon, I recommend skipping that horrid Zelda II. Fuck that game. Seriously ;_;. Zelda 1 is amazing, though. Beat it twice in a row. I still have yet to beat Ocarina of time and Link to the Past XD;. I'm such a slacker. I usually beat my games!!

BTW, I have tried another metroid game. Supposedly the most popular one- Super Metroid. My friend and I got stuck pretty much within the first 5 mins. I don't think I'm ever going to try another metroid game again.

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Dream Splash III - Chrono Break [2010] / Re: Moonlight Reckoning - Act 1
« on: September 22, 2010, 03:59:35 am »
I wanna see whatever you have, but I can't quite figure out how to open an mkv file. How annoying, I used to be able to do it with media player, I think. I have a new computer, btw. I have to figure out how to install a codec and sometimes I don't like this process >_>;. I hope to do that soon.

Do you still need any voice actors, btw? Or have you got all your parts filled?

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General Discussion / Re: The $%*! frustration thread
« on: September 22, 2010, 01:59:22 am »
I'm getting a cold right now. I haven't had one in two years thanks to my "creepy nose things", but they're running out and can never be replaced : (. I wouldn't mind so much if it weren't for the fact that dad and I are planning on traveling to bring grandma to her nursing home near dad, and he's worried she will pick up this cold that's been going around.

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General Discussion / Re: PC GPU Upgrade question for the tech savvy
« on: September 22, 2010, 01:55:44 am »
Why don't you utilize PSZ's thread for this? It was fairly recent.

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General Discussion / Re: Whats YOUR Favourite Game?
« on: September 22, 2010, 01:54:37 am »
If anyone's looking for a Fire Emblem-like game for the PS2, might wanna give Berwick Saga a whirl. It looks neato, though it's only in Japanese. I can't believe the amount of work that must have gone into all that sprite animation.

Looks quite like a ripoff. I wonder if it's a decent ripoff. I love seeing the sprites, though. I'd almost try to venture it if I had a PS2 D:. Although it's against my very being, I *may* get a PS2 sometime in the near future just because a friend gave me two Fatal Fury collections for my b-day somehow assuming I have a PS2. I'm not sure why she'd assume that. Grrr.

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General Discussion / Re: Video Game Discussion Thread
« on: September 22, 2010, 01:47:19 am »
I finally found revanent wings : D. Turns out it was in my CTDS case. Whoops! I hope to get back into that soon. Otherwise, I'm still mostly poking around at old nintendo games. I'm going through Mario 2 right now. I don't know why I'm not playing it on the SNES. The game was a lot nicer to you on Mario Allstars. I think maybe when I was little, I used to better at platformers, but now I seem to suck a lot more at them. Maybe it's because when I was younger, I only used to play platformers. Now I have more varied interests, I suppose. I'm so loyal to Toad that he's the only character I use. I should just use the Princess at the hard parts, but I can't seem to bring myself to abandon my little annoying mushroom retainer.

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General Discussion / Re: Help finding a pic
« on: September 22, 2010, 01:33:57 am »
Gorgeous fanart.

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