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Welcome / Birthday / Seeya! Forum / Re: The Backasaurus?
« on: November 22, 2016, 01:21:45 pm »
Howdy howdy. Good to see some familiar faces... well, familiar names. I thought I'd pop on by to say hello.

I don't play much video games these days either. For the longest time, I was obsessed with League of Legends... then gave that up for DOTA 2, and now don't play either of them. I'm busy with Grad School and full time work anyway. I moved to a very remote part of West Texas to be an Archivist for the regional archives here... It's nice and I'm pretty happy for the most part. Some day I would like to become a Special Collections Director and teach some history classes on the side.

Welcome / Birthday / Seeya! Forum / Re: Hi everyone!
« on: June 28, 2012, 02:43:27 pm »

Hi all. I thought I would stop by and say hi again. It hasn't quite been a year since I last stopped by.

So what have I been doing in that time span? Not a whole lot until the end of March when I moved across the country (drove across it too!) from California to Maryland to start a job as a Processing Archivist. The job itself can get kind of boring and mundane, but it's pretty much everything I expected. It's kind of lonely here since I don't really have any friends, but I occupy myself the best I can. I hope all of you have been well and accomplishing your dreams! Kind of cheesy, but I just hope all of you are happy and creating fulfilling lives : ).

Welcome / Birthday / Seeya! Forum / Hi everyone!
« on: July 04, 2011, 09:58:54 am »
It's been a while and I wanted to pop in and say hello!  I don't really recall how long it's been since I last posted here. Ok, it's been about 9 months. I haven't really been keeping up with a whole lot going on here, but sometimes check the updates mostly for fanart.

I just got reminded of here because I still always listen to CT music and there may be a small chance of a friend of mine playing To Far Away Times- on the piano which I have always wanted to listen to! Someday I still hope to play a CT song fully on the piano.

So since the last 9 months I've been gone, I have... been to Michigan and back for an awesome internship, finished grad school (My immediate goal is to be an archivist full time), and I am now in Israel!

I love it in Israel and I've been here for over a week. I'm going home on Thursday. It's a wonderful country with a lot of amazing things to see and do and I really wish that my ankles/feet didn't get really messed up so I could spend my last couple days here doing more active things, but alas a third trip to Jerusalem can't happen...

I've also taken up doing a lot more physical activity and I have a personal trainer who I will continue to meet up with 3 times a week for the rest of July so I hope he will continue to move me the right direction in terms of exercise and getting healthier.

What has everyone else been up to in the last year? : ).Hope all of you are doing well!

General Discussion / Re: George Bush coming to UNT
« on: October 19, 2010, 08:37:50 pm »
Tell us all about it after you come back from it!

General Discussion / Re: The $%*! frustration thread
« on: October 15, 2010, 02:55:12 am »
I realize that my political opinions can be offensive, especially considering I have more right-wing opinions of certain things, but I really wish people didn't take my opinions so personally. Especially since I get defriended by two people by stating them in my own blog. I didn't care with one of the defrienders at all, but the other one I actually really liked and it was kind of hurtful to be said they don't want to associate with me anymore because they think I'm a horrible person for having the guts to state certain political opinions. WTF D:. I would never do that to someone.

 I know someone who is quite right wing, and always said all these really rude racial slurs about people. I've known her since HS and she's always been right-wing. These days she's become even more right wing and has become very intelligent about politics, especially when it comes to raising dirt about our president. I don't agree with about 70 percent of her opinions, but I would never stop being friends with her just because of that. I have tried to stop taking internet drama seriously. I am usually the cause of it, and that one person who defriended me I have decided isn't worth my time getting upset over, if she wants to abandon me for my political views.

Internet drama isn't really worth my time getting upset about anymore. I suppose that I value the Compendium for that epiphany :3. My life is pretty awesome and it exceeds the internet. I love all of you here, but I'm glad I moved past getting emotionally invested in internet drama. I still do it, but it's not like it makes me sad or even enraged anymore. The enraged I'm sure may happen again, let's just hope it isn't soon XD;

General Discussion / Re: Stuff you LOVE, baby
« on: October 06, 2010, 08:28:14 pm »
Oh you're awesome for finding a full ep of Pete & Pete on teh internets!!! I loved that show XD. Big Pete is so cute <3<3. I've always liked him best.

Yeah, unfortunately that is not good : (. I'm not quite sure what to tell you. I have two friends like you, and a big part of their problems is that they are just not socialized and do not understand or are unwilling to understand how "normal" people socialize. I'm sure that friend you have is a great friend to you, but it seems like you don't really socialize with any people regularly. If that's the case, I really suggest you try to change that. I don't really understand your condition with Avoidant Personality Disorder, but I understand that the best way to deal with mental problems is to try hard to make your life better. This is what I've dealt with at various stages of my life:

1. ADD
2. Most Likely Aspergers
3. Severe Insomnia
4. Severe Depression
5. Agoraphobia
6. Some kind of anti social type thing... I don't know how to explain it, but I tend not to form social relationships easily. I am a very confident, headstrong person and I am very friendly, but I have issues with people getting to know me and making friends. I have a lot of issues making new friends. it's not shyness, it's some other thing, I guess.
7. Bullying (though this ended around when I was 16)
8. OCD
9. Severe stress and anxiety, inability to deal with stress (this causes the insomnia, which causes a multitude of other problems)

Today I went to the therapist. He's expensive, but very helpful. He likes me because of my candor. I am a very frank person and I hate bullshit. It's the Russian/Jew in me. Maybe you should seek a therapist who is experienced in Avoidant Personality Disorder? I'm not sure if you can afford it. I'm lucky because my parents can, and they understand it's important that I go to him.

Chrono Compendium Discussion / Re: Commission request (guidelines posted)
« on: October 06, 2010, 08:07:31 pm »
PSZ, if you want someone to truly do this, you need to pay them. I have two very talented artist friends I can refer you to, but they basically only take pay. A third mostly does beautiful 3d art... but you'd probably have to pay him too. Go seek out people on deviant art and ask if they are willing to do a commission, then you say how much you want for it. Most artists will do it for around 10 dollars to 20 dollars if you want full color. It isn't that expensive, and you will be helping support their talent. I know that my two artist friends need monetary support and... most artists are what I'd call "starving artists". Also, there are plenty of Compendiumite artists who may be willing to do it. I'd personally seek out Mystic Alpha, but I like most of the artists here. Go find them on deviant art and ask for a paid commission. That is my suggestion to you.

Chrono Compendium Discussion / Can't logout.
« on: October 04, 2010, 11:56:11 am »
Have had this problem since yesterday. Logout button does nothing. Is anyone else having this problem? I bet most people just like to stay logged in always, but I'm very weird about these kinds of things XD;

General Discussion / Re: Park Your Amusements Here
« on: October 04, 2010, 11:54:21 am »
India's Mr. Bean is a lot cuter than Mr. Bean :3. Otherwise, I don't really get the humor XD;. Lots of crazy dancing with bright Bollywood-esque colors and then some Chaplain-esque antics. Bollywood movies still kind of confuse me. They are so cheesy and cute, but there must be lots of cultural things I just don't think Westerners can get. Maybe that's why most Westerners don't know much of anything about Bollywood. After all these years, I actually am beginning to appreciate some British humor. Hopefully some day I'll find a really cool Bollywood movie to watch. I don't really count "Slumdog Millionaire" as an Indian movie >_<.

General Discussion / Re: The $%*! frustration thread
« on: October 04, 2010, 11:44:16 am »
The doctor that I went to gave me a sleep sheet with stuff he wants me to follow. Since I got back, I've been sleeping pretty well, though only ~7.5 hrs when I like around 9 hrs XD;. A big thing that has helped is that he said I was not to play on the computer or video games, or any kind of "stimulating" electronic medium an hour before bed. Even though I'm pretty hardcore over pokemon black right now, I've been basically trying to follow that and read some chick book instead. If I get really bad, I still have dad's copy of Moby Dick- one of the most horrid books I have ever tried to read. Disappointing because I'm really into the story >___<. Reading a really boring book actually has started to help me.

I still am sensitive to noises when I sleep. A problem with my place (now I'm at my parents) is that the next door neighbors have their very noisy air conditioner running all night long, even if it's already cold and they don't need it. It's kept me up the entire night before.I haven't bitched about it to them because they have more serious problems- one of them has some kind of severe blood pressure condition that hasn't been alleviated and doctors can't figure out what is wrong with him : (. It's really sad because every time I ask about what he's been up to, all he's been up to is spending hours and hours at the hospital undergoing all sorts of medical tests. Wish he had Dr. House!

General Discussion / Re: Symphonic Fantasies
« on: October 04, 2010, 12:12:39 am »
Love this, thanks!!!!!!!!!

Avoidant Personality Disorder with Schizo? Yeah, that sounds kind of hard, but it's something you have to work on, even if you get really scared.

The shit really hit the fan when we were getting grandma. I literally had a panic attack on the airplane and it kind of... exacerbated everything. There was a procedure with putting me to sleep, and I slept the rest of the flight with my eyes open, giving me this kind of terrifying dream I'm trying to forget. I am now seeing a shrink, who immediately diagnosed me with Agoraphobia (no, it's not only fear of wide, open, spaces. I am not scared of that, I'm scared of being in crowded areas with lots of people.) I have been slowly dealing with it by going to crowded places and wearing earplugs if I get too stressed out. I have figured out that I'm undergoing a process called "systematic desensitization". So much that somehow neighbors were alerted about my problem and everyone still thinks that I am paranoid and delusional, even my boyfriend and family : (. It's kind of frustrating because they don't realize that people are on edge around me since I was literally crazy for a short while. For example, neighbors have been told to wear certain colors and make lots of distracting noises. For me, it's always been the noises. Most people like some background noise when they sleep. I like silence. I am very sensitive to certain noises and right now loud conversations really stress me out so much that I need to wear earplugs.

It's the little steps that you take. I know you've been dealing with this problem all your life, but you have to make little steps. Life is full of lots of rejections, you're somehow gunna have to work it out. Maybe try seeing a good doctor again? They can help you find ways to improve your life. I'm not sure how to handle the hypersensitivity. I've basically always been the complete opposite. People think that I have too much confidence because I am audacious and always trying to do everything by myself and always meeting and engaging with new, interesting people. I have two friends who basically have not had proper socialization their entire lives. I teach them, but I sometimes give them harsh lessons and that is because really, they need it. They don't understand how "normal" people function and socialize. Since I do, I have to get it through to them so that they are not so depressed all the time and overreact to things that "normal" people find trivial.  I'd probably be a bad friend to you XD;. Do you have any nice friends who are understanding of your problems?

General Discussion / Re: Taxonomy of food (pastries if you will)
« on: October 03, 2010, 11:56:46 pm »
I thought I was gunna have a cake on my birthday, but my friend made me and my guests a bunch of cupcakes instead. They were handier because you could just eat them separately and didn't have to cut them : ). Now I have a craving for one of those expensive fancy cupcake shops. *drools*

General Discussion / Re: The $%*! frustration thread
« on: October 03, 2010, 11:53:10 pm »
Lost my mind from insomnia several days ago, and now I have agoraphobia D:. Also some kind of paranoid other things. It's a long story. Anyway, I can only be in crowded places now if I have my ear plugs with me. Good news is that grandma is doing well.

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